Careless Mommy

Haven't been writing for a while, i blamed it on my chronic sleep deprivation which partially cloud my brain for remembering some stuffs. Ahem, this seems to be always the best excuse for my forgetfulness and lack of motivation to do something. Bleah.

Well, the fact is that of late, i haven't been to any interesting places nor do any exciting things with my little munchkin that warrant my attention. All we did was to entertain each other with inanimated toys and sometimes engaged in pretend play. What humdrum lifestyle we have, u must be thinking.

At 17 months old, this toddler of mine is getting highly active. So active that I can hardly manage her. Sometimes i even worry that she will suffer from "Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder" (ADHD). (O well, maybe too much toxins have gotten to my head already). By not paying enough attention on her, some accidents could have occur. This was what happened.

The day began unevenfully and almost ended uneventfully too till we came back from dinner. It was a Saturday. While waiting for the lift to our home, the little girl as usual was in her exploration mode, seeing and touching lift buttons and whatever nonsense she could find around her. The lift came and we went in. The little imp was running in circles in the lift while i tried to dish out my house keys. All of a sudden she dashed out to reach for the alarm bell button, and in a split second i saw her fingers caught in the lift door frame as the door slid opened at that time. I freaked out. My first instinct was to pull her hand out, but by doing that could hurt her more, so i stopped and stood aghast at the sight of her screams and cries. Daddy quickly pried open the thick door with all his strength to make way for her fingers. The sliding door disclosed a tiny clear space, which is enough for me to quickly pull her fingers out. I hugged her and pat her fingers in the midst of her hysterical cry which i supposed the whole block of residents could have heard her.

Back into our home, the little girl still could not stop crying despite all we have done to console her. I hastily made her milk and fed her. Only then did she settled down and soon fell aslept. While she was sleeping, i examined her fingers and found that her index and middle finger were red swollen with a very slight "dent". I was then very worried whether the incident could have fractured her fingers and i really hate myself for my lack of vigilant attention and supervision towards her. On hindsight, I remembered that this is not the first accident that happened to her. She was at the playground running near the monkey bars when an older boy jumped off from the playgound equipment and hence hit her right on the face (or head? it happened too fast for me to see.) Again, i was careless an dcould have prevented it if i was near her. On another occasion, on the day i was feeling very depressed over the loss of my unborn baby, the little girl was playing with daddy's tubes which were made of glass coated with mercuric oxide internally. I was too distracted to supervise her and hence she picked up two tubes and hit against one another. In a short time, i heard a breaking sound and saw the girl holding the tubes in both her hands. Of of a sudden, i was slapped back to reality, i quickly removed the broken tubes from her hands in the nick of time to prevent any cuts from chemical poisoning!

Above all of these incidents, I had reminded myself time and again never ever to leave this child of mine unattended at any time. Most accidents can be prevented with proper precautions. As a parent, i know that i need to provide a safe environment for my child even at my own home. The lift door accident definitely serves as a wake-up call for me. All because i am not alert enough and usually slow in response, i certainly hope that there will not be any more accidents that may cause hurt or injuries to the little girl, for it may be too high a price for me to pay!